Author Leanne Davis

Contemporary Romance Author

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River’s Destiny… my newest release… grab your copy!

Look what’s ready to read… River’s Destiny! I’m so excited to share with the world, the latest addition to my River’s End Series!
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River’s Destiny

It’s pretty amazing to now add the 8th book to the River’s End series! Charlie’s book! Who is Charlie? Jack Rydell’s youngest son. Jack Rydell is the first character in River’s End and the backbone of the entire series. So writing about his son, who readers first met at the age of 8, has been a feeling of coming full circle. It’s the last book (to date) with a Rydell as the lead character.

Cami Reed we met in River Road as AJ Reed’s long lost daughter. She seriously crashes into this series with a bang! I don’t reveal much about her in AJ’s story, because I was saving her for this book. Her character is meant to be hard to know, and she has a hard time trusting others. A central theme to her and Charlie’s relationship.

Teaser about the book River's Destiny. Newest addition to the River's End Series!

This is the book…

…where you fully meet Cami and learn the details of her past. It isn’t revealed at first, why Cami is how she is. So stick with her! I promise you it will be worth it. I hope even… the ending will surprise you (in a good way). She is frustrating and difficult… sometimes needy and fragile… and yet, she deeply loves AJ, The Rydells, River’s End and most of all, Charlie. Her story is one of growth and finding herself and figuring out how to love and be loved. Especially by and with Charlie.

Charlie?

Well his loyalty will inspire you and make you believe in love again. He will change how you think about loving someone, and what it means when you say you’ll love someone “forever” and “no matter what”. Because it’s easy in the beginning to say that and mean that… but living it? An entirely different matter!

Teaser about River's Destiny with a quote.

A different type of story…

River’s Destiny is a story more about BEING in love, than falling in love. This story is a little different than most of my books… but I believe it fits. This book explores dreams and ambitions, and how our pasts form and influence our definition of those things. This story delves into being young and in love, as well as the mistakes we often make… both big and small.
So… take the journey into how Cami & Charlie share love and heartache, while trying to make their relationship survive through separation and betrayal… and eventual redemption.
Book cover of River's Destiny, newest addition to the River's End Series.

Need to catch up on the series?

Take a look at books 1-7!
Summary of River’s End Series

When fact and fiction collide.

I’m feeling reflective today… but in the best way.

Something I don’t often talk about in depth, is the thing I’ve spent the most time on the last three years. There was many times in the beginning I wasn’t sure it was going to turn out “fine.” And for once I just couldn’t find words for it.

I’m late to work (my office in our house! but work nevertheless) today because I was at my son’s school putting in place his next year’s 504 plan and it’s accommodations. It was a great irony in my life that as my books started to sell, I learned that my then, 2nd grade son, had a reading-specific learning disorder. It seemed to be serendipity that readers buying my books became the funding for our real-life struggle to teach our young son how to decode the simplest of words. But to him? Not one learned word has ever been “easy.”

You see my son has Dyslexia. And most likely whatever you think that means… probably isn’t the full picture of it. I’ve discovered and many dyslexia-professionals will attest to, that even most educators have a limited/narrow/incomplete understanding of the very real and encompassing symptoms that defines dyslexia and the far reaching practical manifestations they have.

It also became another part-time job for me of sorts. I became the point person to deal with the school, teachers, and tutors. In our journey, I even home-schooled for 6 months, as Alex was SO behind and there was several dyslexic-based math programs and site-word learning programs we absolutely had to do.

I would be nowhere without our dyslexic-specific tutor. Alex has worked with her for three years now and she’s saved us! EVERY penny and every hour we’ve slogged through tutoring, is something I’m on-my-knees grateful for that we found… for she’s given us, what no one else could… the gift of reading to our son. There is no doubt he’d never have progressed past a first grade reading competency without this long, grueling, point by point remediation. Specialized tutoring which, just today, a school official asked me… why don’t we just go through the school?

Someday, I’ll tell you the full story of why I don’t “just” go through the school.

It seems like the minimum bar of being a parent is to provide food, shelter, health and yes, I truly believe, the ability to READ. You just owe it to your kid. Seems like a basic human right to have the ability to read, considering the world we live in. There was a time, I feared we would not succeed in giving him this.

It was three years ago this month I found the solution to an ever growing concern at the time: why can’t Alex read? From first grade on, I knew something wasn’t connecting with how my son was learning to read.

But everyone at the school said no! He’s fine. He’ll catch up. He’s bright and works hard… yes, he was all those things and had all the right help at home… and no positive results to show for it.

We did it all… the outside reading, the one-on-one extra help.

We pushed our son. We helped our son. We loved our son.

And still our son did not read.

Still we were failing our son.

The school said wait longer… it’ll come. But with extensive remediation nothing came except frustration for us, and anxiety for him.

I felt my own anxiety and frustration and panic growing… what was wrong? It was terrifying not to know or understand.

We finally went outside the school (I highly recommend this. Contrary to what most think, MOST school districts DON’T TEST OR RE-MEDIATE PROPERLY for dyslexia). It was the best and worst news of my life. My son tested as severely dyslexic… but now we knew what the problem was… and now we could find effective help. And eventually, we could learn to embrace the many positives about it. (which I’ll go into in a later post.)

There was a grief in it at first. I tried fighting the school district to provide the correct help but finally figured out it’s a State funding issue. They recognize Dyslexia as a learning disability but have no enforceable funding to test for it or re-mediate for it properly.

And I quickly learned, do NOTHING verses doing the WRONG reading program. There are books upon books about dyslexia… but the key part to fix reading: IT MUST BE AN ORTON GILLINGHAM based reading program. I could provide pages of backup why/what this is… but in the end, that’s the truth. That’s the holy grail of dyslexia & reading.

So as I was discovering this and our family was slogging our way through what to do… I had written Erin Poletti of River’s End. If you’ve read that you know she’s an illiterate adult… who has dyslexia.

Imagine my… surprise and kind of WOW! moment of irony… I wrote a character and now that characters’s problem is exactly mine.

I write about so many subject in my novels, most of which, I’ve not personally or fully experienced. I sometimes get asked if I’ve gone through this or that of which I’ve written about.

No, is usually the answer.

But dyslexia? Oh yeah. As the parent of. I can tell you and from talking to other parents of dyslexics, it’s a unique learning disability. It’s highly misunderstood. Especially in the state of Washington. Most teachers AND reading specialists have little or no training in it. As the parent of a dyslexic student, I guarantee you, you will know more about it than any educator you deal with.

What I can say is it’s been three years, and now Alex functions in a public school setting, highly independent, adjusted in all ways social/behavioral/emotional and most telling for me, educationally.

But you know what? He still has dyslexia. It still pops up as a problem and difficulty. It’s something we talk about and figure out… and something too, we laugh about.

But he’s learning how to handle it.

Voluntarily reading the ceremony outline for Boy Scouts Banquet!

Many years and tutoring sessions…. Pretty big & emotional moment for me to witness. 

And all the difference in Alex’s success or fail is tied up in he’s had the RIGHT accommodations and dyslexic-based programs.

It has taken more time than I could quantify but honestly? The return on my investment has been the best of my life.

And now, I feel like for the first time in three years… I can breathe.

My son can read.

The best comprehensive website on Dyslexia AND help that works:
Bright Solutions for Dyslexia.

Bookbub and The Good Sister… give it a try for FREE!

One of the most exciting things that can happen to an indie author like me, is to get chosen by BookBub to advertise your books in. It’s a super-selective publication that accepts only about 20% of the submissions. So when The Good Sister was picked to feature it’s free deal for today (2-11-18) I was doing a bit of dancing!

So with that… if you haven’t tried the second book in my Sister Series

Please give it a try for FREE… through Valentine’s day!

Click here for the Amazon.com link!

or Amazon UK: https://www.amazon.co.uk/gp/product/B00HY3HN7E

Though please be warned, this book delves into the brutal violence a husband inflicts on his wife, though she doesn’t tell anyone about it. I did not sugar coat the violence, nor my victim’s emotional reactions and desperate desires to keep it all hidden.

I have had a lot of response to this book, both with survivors of domestic violence, who have reached out to me and thanked me for not backing down from “going there” with the writing of this book, and critics who found I took it too far. It was the story I felt compelled to tell and most of all, to bring forth the conversation of why a person might stay in a violent or abusive relationship.

I’m far from an authority on that question or answer. It’s a complex question with an even more complicated and multi-dimensional answer, an answer which is most likely different for each victim and/or survivor. I don’t attempt to answer it, I simply write one scenario, one woman’s struggle, based on a groomed past of abuse that continued through her adult years.

What I do hope this character does is make the readers consider domestic violence. When  so often it is glossed over, sanitized, denied or even ignored. When the often asked question of “why did he/she stay in the violent relationship?” comes up, I attempted to write ONE scenario about why.

Anyway, if you take a chance on this book, I hope you get something out of it. In the end, I hope you find fulfillment in Lindsey’s journey through this book.

Blurb:

Lindsey Bains Johanson has spent her entire life practicing the art of denial. She was always the obedient, perfect daughter of General Travis Bains, until she learned of the atrocities he committed against her own sister. Now, free of her father, she has become the perfect wife. A lifetime of training has enabled her to keep quiet about anything and everything, including the monster her husband becomes behind closed doors.

Circumstances allow her to take an unprecedented vacation, which she uses to visit her sister in Washington State, clear across the country from her home in Arlington, Virginia. Free of her husband’s presence, she starts to step out of the confines he keeps her shackled in. With the help of veterinarian Noah Clark, she learns that she doesn’t have to be so good or obedient. But she also knows that the woman she is becoming is someone her husband will never allow her to be.

When her husband eventually comes for her, she goes home without telling anyone the secret she has kept at the expense of her mind and body. But this time things go too far; and only then does Noah discover what she has hidden for years. But Lindsey knows that nothing will stop her husband from destroying her, no matter how long it takes.

 

 

 

 

NEW SERIES for 2018!

The Son Series

2017 has me finishing up The Daughters Series and The Sister Series, a total of 15 books between the two of them, so they have taken up a lot of time and writing space. So with their conclusions my brain was free to think up some new ideas and concepts and so I introduce The Son Series.

Wyatt Kincaid shows up as a five-year-old little boy in The Lost Sister and captured my heart… and I started picturing him older and what his story might be… and thus began the seeds of thought for this series. I’m so excited to start on it after I finish up with my River’s End Series.

And besides if there is a Daughters Series with my name on it, it’s only fitting there is a Son Series!

So for now, here are the details I have been developing, which might be subject to change (and some editing!)

A spin-off of The Sister Series about the sons of Ryder and Tara Kincaid as well as Chet and Chloe Willipana (The Lost Sister & The Remaining Sister).

Join their sons as they discover the meaning of family, love and relationships, as they find their destinies and all with a little help from each other.

 

~Wyatt~

I don’t trust him.

Who’s he? Wesley. The guy who mugged my parents and then somehow, spectacularly, ends up becoming my brother. But in reality? He will never be anything to me. Unfortunately, accompanying the arrival of Wesley is Jacy. She has run the streets with him and follows him to my parents’ home. Raised by my dad and stepmom, in the small town of Silver Springs, I won’t allow my parents to push these strangers on me as my family.

They aren’t welcome, and especially by me.

Jacy Walker has her own tales of horror, but I have no interest and no desire to help her unravel or deal with them. Starting my new job, I don’t want anything to do with the changes she brings to my life, even as I can’t deny the unwanted attraction between us. That is until I figure out who she really is and what she is really doing there.

~Wesley~

Yeah, I don’t trust them.

Who are they? They are the family who adopts me when I’m seventeen-years-old. Who does that? Who adopts a nearly grown man? I’ve never had a permanent home and should most likely be in jail. I’d long since runaway from the foster care system after my last “home” had an older kid using my back for a cigarette tray. My means of supporting myself? Whatever necessary. That includes anything and everything I needed to do to survive. That’s all my life has been about to date anyway: survival. And you know what? I’ve done just that.

Survived.

Then this strange family decides to rescue me. I don’t trust their motives for a second and I’m ready at any moment for it to go wrong. Nothing is going to make me believe in them. Even as I meet Dandria Dawson, a waitress in my adoptive mom’s café, who tries to show me a softer side to life. Still… I know that nothing lasts, not food, shelter, parents, friends, brothers, families and certainly not love. So I’m ready for it all to go to crap, but until then? Jokes on all of them, I’ll take advantage of it until the very last moment.

~Devon~

I fell in love with Ireena Monroe and then she fell in love with my identical twin brother. It ripped us apart and we haven’t spoken in years.

All my life, Claudia Tamasy has come to town visiting her aunt, and to bother me. Her dad opens a branch of his business near Silver Springs and I get a job there, and of course, so does Claudia. She seems to have an endless crush on me. But what the hell do I care about her feelings as I seek my fortune? For the last thing that will ever distract me is a relationship. Fool me once… well, I watched the girl I loved marry my brother. No, hell no, will I ever be fooled again.

Until my brother calls me with devastating news about Ireena and Claudia tries to make me see I have to go help my brother. But how can I forgive him? And what can I do about Claudia as she freaking follows me home?

~Damion~

My daughter, Dayshia is my entire life, even as I grieve her mother, who dies way too young. I’m convinced I’ll never love again, and even more sure, I don’t want to. I end up back in my hometown of Silver Springs, where my parents will now help me raise my daughter, while I try to make amends with the brother I wronged. I propose a vision of expanding my mom’s café into a chain restaurant, starting here in the Pacific Northwest. The challenge of it keeps me from falling into total depression and boredom. And the perfect person to help with that, unfortunately, is PR consultant Kaeja Ingalles, who also happened to be my wife’s best friend.

Kaeja has tried in earnest to keep check on me and my daughter, almost as distraught over my wife’s death as I am. But I don’t have the patience to handle her grief, along with my own. I’ve shunned her attention for a long time. But my daughter? She takes complete comfort from her… and I find I can’t keep them apart. I’m sure she and I will never be anything. For how could we ever move past Ireena? We can’t. But oddly enough, I seem to be the only one who understands that.

~Upcoming for 2017~

The New Year is always the best time to get a “big picture” of what next to write and where all my series are at or will be going. I use this timeline to schedule my editors, arrange book covers and advertisments, and also to keep my writing schedule on track. I’m so much more motivated if I know what’s next in line and especially if it’s a book I’m highly interested in working on. Right off, this year, I’ll be releasing two books from two different series on February 27 and 28th. They are both in various stages of editing, so I’ll have those to review the next month.

River’s Lost (River’s End Series)- February 27th– On Pre-order now.

and Melissa (Daughters Series)- February 28th — On Pre-order now.

In between reviewing and making edits of these two books I have just started writing Emily which will finish out the Daughters Series. I have all kinds of ideas where this book is going and I can’t wait to dig into it and find out if I can make it all happen. Honestly, each book feels like a brand new experience and this apprehension fills me each time: can I pull this story line off? Even as this is the 26th book I’m starting, it feels as exciting as the first.

Once Emily wraps up, I’ll be done with the Daughters Series and exit the Hendricks family who are the basis of six books: The Other Sister, The Years Between, Christina, Natalie, Melissa and Emily. I have a huge soft spot for this family as I’ve spent so much time working with them and from various angles. Their stories take place over the course of 40 years, from the start of The Other Sister to the end of Emily. There’s a suspension of reality in the timeline as The Other Sister took place in 2004, because Will Hendricks served in the war in Afghanistan and so I had to set this book around that time period. From there I eventually explored the lives of their daughters, and they had to age to make that happen. I feel like these four are my own daughters as I’ve spent so much time thinking about their lives, their connection to their parents, and each other.

Emily – Daughters #4

Once I finish the Daughters I will bounce back to The Sister Series and finish the last of this series:  Book #8  The Lost Sister and then Book #9 The Step Sister. I believe (as of now) the series will then be complete… but there is a chance… I have one last sister I might, maybe, sort of, think about writing a book about. But I haven’t totally made up my mind…

This is what my brain does and how I end up with series that are supposed to be 2 or 3 books long and instead turn into 10 book series. The further I get into a series, the more characters I’m introduced to and these characters often catch my interest and then my imagination feels like it catches fire… and then more stories burn through me to be told.

Kind of like what has happened with River’s End. I’m down to the last advertised book in that series to write about… but, well, I had to add 3 more books to it. HAD TO. They were driving me nuts, begging for their stories to be told. So what can an author do but listen to these voices in her head?! I have the covers ready and I’m working on their blurbs, so stay tuned into the start of this year for more details about what I’ll be adding to River’s End. Just a hint I’ll be delving into Caleb’s life (Kailynn’s brother) and Hailey’s two kids, Brianna and Jacob.

And I digressed… so after the two Sister Books I plan to get back to River’s End and finish this series… all 4 books back to back. This far into a series, it goes so much quicker to write them continuously because all the people and places and events and the timelines are so fresh in my mind, it feels like I merely step further into it all with each book.

This should all eat up the next year… and after that?

Oh the ideas I have!

I’ve already started on some new books and projects. I have some covers already… they are far out in my future, but this is how books and series start with me. They percolate for months or even years so that by the time I physically sit down to write the stories I’ve had them run through my head like scenes from a movie, and I then get the pleasure of putting them all together into a book. This too, is how I can write so many books a year. The more I am writing, the more it fuels my imagination and the faster and more complete the books are “inside” my head. By the time I write them, they feel almost done to me, even though they aren’t put into words yet.

I don’t write so many books to meet some kind of quota or because I feel I have to. No! The opposite! Doing this, writing all these books and series is my absolute DREAM COME TRUE! I pinch myself to have the pleasure to do this as a career. At any given time I have up to 10 books in my mind’s eye. And I as soon as I finish one, I can’t wait to get to delve into the next. I usually finish the first draft on a book, and then let it ‘sit’ for a few days before I start the editing process. In the mean time… you guessed it, I start my next book.

I don’t take a lot of time to celebrate “the end’, because to me, the celebration is getting to move onto another story! And I hope I never lose this enthusiasm for my ‘next book’ and the satisfaction and enthusiasm I feel to be writing each and every novel I create and in all stages of the process.

The Midnight Circle~FREE today!

TheMidnightCircle

Clara Winters, a non-practicing witch, has been living the life of an old woman in the body of a twenty-two-year-old ever since fated to everlasting life in 1919. With the unexpected death of her beloved aunt, the easy life on her southern plantation is over. Grief awakens hiding ghosts—in the form of age-old magic and thirsty vampires.
Long ago, powerful magic entangled and stole Clara’s great love, Wesley Russell, when he became a vampire. Wesley rises from banishment, forcing Clara to resist the temptation of a renewed life together by reminding him of the consequences that come to those who defy the spell of the Midnight Circle.
Mysterious mountain visions and guidance from her deceased aunt lead Clara on a journey to friendship and love, reintroducing her to the passions of youth. But as evil lurks and the Circle shows signs of unraveling, Clara becomes desperate to escape the spell without harming those she holds dear.

My Review:

The Midnight Circle starts off with an intriguing spell and a dying witch and her niece who is frozen in time (1919) due to a glitch of being exposed to a vampire. Clara Winters, because of the spell, kills any vampire who bites her and makes gravely ill any vampire who ventures too close. Clara is a lovely, kind “nature witch” who is frozen forever at the age of 22 and who takes the reader on her unforgettable journey through the Midnight Circle and how it affects her epic romance with Westley Russell. And I mean epic, because Westley is a vampire. Their love started over a century ago, and has been nothing short of tragic. Westley’s first entrance into the book had me swooning. I loved him! He comes alive and off the page being both dark and light. I can’t even describe him! He’s so well written and when he shows up later on… it’s one of my favorite scenes of all times in any book. He loves Clara, she physically makes him ill, and yet he still comes after her.

After her beloved aunt’s death at the start of the book Clara has clear visions of the Grand Tetons and feels compelled to travel to Wyoming even though she has no idea what she is going there for. Once in Wyoming she meets four friends who become center to what her visions are about. Oh, how this author weaves around a story of suspense, betrayal, love-both romantic and familial. There is vampires and witches and spells but also such a realistic telling of them that you feel you are there with Clara and Westley. How the visions, the spell, Westley and Clara ultimately collide… left me breathless and unable to tear my eyes away from the page. In a word? Excellent. The ending is resolved and so satisfying… but left with just enough hints of the next book… that I CAN NOT WAIT FOR IT!!

 

This is Jaylene Jacobus’s debut novel and the first in her Midnight Circle Series.

Author Bio:

Jaylene Jacobus is the author of the literary paranormal romance The Midnight Circle. A few of her treasured literary influences are Bram Stoker, Jane Austen, Margaret Mitchell, and Shakespeare. She loves blurring lines with cross-genres and was lured to the nonfiction side to co-write 101 Questions For Single People and 101 Questions for Couples.

Jaylene lives in the foothills of the Cascade Mountains in the Pacific Northwest. She enjoys the progressive atmosphere of Seattle and never tires of wandering through the Emerald City drinking an Americano from the original Starbucks. Most of the time she can be found at home, spending time with her family or walking through the forested mountainside, dreaming up sentences worthy of writing down.

Her website is jaylenejacobus.com.

 

 

Book Bub! ~The Years After~

YearsAfter_Revised_CVR_MEDThe most popular and amazing (for an author) marketing publication is BookBub and for the first time they are featuring The Years After as a one of their New Adult Free deals. It’s a huge experience to be featured as they only pick about 20% of the books submitted to them. I think this is the 9th time in the last two years that one of my books has been picked. Each and every time I get accepted, you will find me literally dancing around my house! It’s that amazing of a boast. The Years After was released just over a year ago and it’s neither been free or on sale before. So enjoy!

The Lost Sister (Sister Series, #8) New Addition!

I was typing along on The Broken Sister this last winter, when my main characters, Tristan and Kylie were discussing Tristan’s sister Tara, who had runaway years ago and had not been heard from since. From that first time “Tara” popped up as a conversation topic, my brain has been shuffling her around. Who is she? Why did she leave? What happened to her after she left? Where is she now?

This is how my brain works. This is why I have up to 8 books at any given time, in my head, I want to write. They start formulating even if I don’t want them to. I don’t always intend to turn secondary characters into their own stories, but often, it happens. I had envisioned Tristan having a sister strictly as part of his backstory and to skew his perception of Kylie. I had no intentions of a book… but since the moment I wrote down Tara’s name… she’s been calling to me. I’ve lain awake at night thinking about her character.

And so… I simply had to add her to my series. She won’t leave me alone until I do! What does this mean for the series? Her story slides in after The Perfect Sister and has become Book #8 and The Step Sister (about Julia Lindstrom) is now Book #9. So here is another addition to The Sister Series!

LostSister_CVR_SMLThe Lost Sister

Misery at home made seventeen-year-old Tara Tamasy run away from her upper crust, dysfunctional family, with just the clothes on her back. Drawn into the dangerous, unforgiving world of the streets, hunger eventually made Tara turn to any means necessary to survive. Years later, she managed to escape, and scrape together a new life, trying to bury from everyone decent, all she did to survive.

Tara lands in a small town working in a diner where she meets Fish and Wildlife Officer, Ryder Kincaid and his young son Wyatt. Instantly, she is drawn towards them and soon starts to believe there is something more between them. Something almost resembling what a family should be.

Ryder suffered through years of dysfunction at the whims of Wyatt’s mom. He vowed he was done for good with relationships after she finally disappeared. The only drama he will allow in his life is that which will come from raising his son. Until Tara Tamasy starts to melt through his carefully crafted defenses. He thinks he’s found something real and lasting with her. Until her long-lost brother finds her. Now, the family that sent Tara fleeing to the streets is trying to draw her back into it, while exposing her past and her secrets, to the one person she will do anything to keep it from.

Three Years Later…

Just over three years ago Poison was released, my first published novel through The Wild Rose Press. It was a roller-coaster ride of learning every facet of not only writing professionally, but marketing and promotion. I took to some things easily. Others? Not so much. I started a blog. Stopped it. Started it. Then let it go for a couple of years.

So here I go again with my blog!

I’m not sure why I don’t do it more. Because honestly? It’s just writing. And who better to have a blog than an author? Even if almost all of us have them! But it’s my name on the website so I have to assume (hopefully) if someone is visiting it they are curious about what I write.

So here I go again. The very first post I wrote I didn’t even have a book for sale. I felt very odd writing it. I mean I was blogging as an author, without a book for sale. Today shouldn’t it be a little easier? Twenty books and three years later, I guess it is. I used to cringe over every word I wrote. Now? I figure I have over a million words published so stressing about every single one? Kind of impossible. I used to be a control freak about what I wrote. No one was allowed to read it unless I physically gave them the printed manuscript. I’ve had to let that go. Realizing I wanted to publish books so I could write more books, I had to get over my phobia.

It has been an incredible three years. And I went for it: self publishing and all.

I have learned so much, hopefully gotten better at it all (even writing). I don’t think I’d change any of it however, even the mistakes. I made some big ones too. But each one? I not only learned, but I lost a little more of my fear of making the mistakes. That fear almost crippled me. It almost made me never even try to put my novels out there. I desired it more intensely than anything in my life; yet I almost didn’t go for it. For a decade I refused to go after it or even tell anyone I wrote because I so feared the mistakes I would no doubt make. I dreaded other people’s comments or criticisms. It was that control thing. Well, when you give up freaking about every possibility, and even kind of embrace your own imperfections…  it makes you willing to try a lot more things. And trying this? Pretty much changed my life and more importantly gave me my career. Not just any career but the one I’d been striving and dreaming about for more than half my life.

I try and own all the mistakes I make as well the accolades I get. And then? Take neither of them too seriously.

A Year in Indie Publishing~September 29, 2014

A year ago today I uploaded The Other Sister to Kindle. Honestly, it was just about the worst moment of my life. I kept wondering, what am I doing? A year before I would have never looked into self-releasing a title. I could not believe I was doing this. It took me month to work up the courage to actually publish it. It was an accident really, that Other Sis is the book that ended up being edited and released before the others. And it was a lucky mistake as it’s still by best selling book. I had waited for 5 months for this editing appointment and in the mean time submitted Zenith (my other complete series) to another publisher. The only book I had available was Other Sister. So I went ahead and edited it, wondering what the heck I was doing. I was 100% convinced it would NOT do well because of the content matter in the book. I was pretty sure the reviews were going to come in wondering why I had written such a book. Plus, I started publishing with a series I had not yet written (though had plans to) so it wasn’t my best route.
But I decided only a very small portion of people knew who I was from Poison’s release so really, what did I have to lose? I didn’t count on much from it. The first night it sold 4 copies, surprisingly. But I just kept thinking, this can’t be good. What are people going to think of this twisted tale of mine? I was totally unsure what route I wanted to take next with my books. I had 4 books contracted with The Wild Rose Press, but another 6 written. It would take years for a publisher to get through all my books, and I’d quickly learned the only chance I had for any kind of actual success was multiple books… which I had, just not edited or with covers.

So I decided I’d try releasing them myself. I truly had no idea what I was doing (still don’t, sometimes). Within a week, I realized I had mistakenly uploaded an earlier version of Other Sister, that had a major error in it (I’ve since changed my process so hopefully this doesn’t happen again.) It was a really blatant error, that did get reviewed on. Luckily I found it quick enough, but I still once in a while get emails regarding it. I guess after that, I decided I’d already made such a big error and survived it … I could just keep trying this. It has been the craziest year. I didn’t expect most of it. The reader emails/messages (mostly appreciated). The reviews. The criticism. I’ve learned there is no way of pleasing everyone. That no matter how many ways I put warnings on my books, I’ll still get comments and emails regarding the fact that I use swear words when I write. This is the criticism I hear about the most, which honestly, was a huge surprise to me. I read a lot in the genre I write and I always considered my books light on swearing and sex… but I still get the negative reviews and emails about them. I’ve had a few times one or another of my books took off a little. It’s been an amazing ride, I hope it continues. I didn’t expect to like self publishing so much. I LOVE it! I have complete control of what I do and how much I do it. I decide what I want in my books or not and what covers represent what I write. I hope to continue writing and publishing and hopefully, someday I’ll figure it all out.